booo! i finished school at 1230 today because during my last lecture of the day, i went for the blood donation drive. yep, it was my first time! just for the experience. but think i'll continue doing this because it doesn't hurt as much i thought it would, also it's my way of contributing to society and helping those who are in need. aye i mean what i say okay. trust me!
econs test today was a total screw-up because i didn't really write anything that made sense. answers were so short my teacher questioned me. she refused to postphone it despite being subjected to our persistence, biatch. i guess this really is gonna be a total flop. can't expect more especially when i couldn't manage to find my notes yesterday night to study from. so much for attempting. carry on this way and i see nothing but failure, dang.
no homework or tests to study for today. actually i think there is homework, but i'm not doing any. no mood :)

got back pretty late from school today because i stayed to accompany nat during her detention. underlying motive, is that it? partly only okay! heh :) was supposed to study for the econs test tomorrow but didn't get anything done there, so i guess i'm, once again, majorly screwed for my econs. basically, i just suck in the subject. period.
realised only now that i have to start reading widely. the sad but true fact is that i don't even read at all, pretty embarrassing huh? wait, don't laugh at me just yet because i have yet to explain myself. the explanation goes like this... -pondering- hmm conclusion is, there's none! uhm none? let's put it this way - there's none of that i want to tell you of. quick and apt in jumping to my own defences, ain't i!
so i guess this is it, being left alone to cope with studying 'perfect competition' tonight. great way to spend the entire night. perhaps i'll decide later to abandon all thoughts of trying to learn that crap.

tiring long day once again.
at least our class managed to beat one class outta two in the volleyball inter-class today. didn't play because i figured i suck at it, afterall it's my first time playing it today! good excuse ain't it?
pissed my piano teacher off as i didn't turn up for my lesson today and chose to stay in school instead. hope she really accepts my explanation, as she claims to. i know she's still unhappy with me though, not gonna try too hard to make her satisfied either.
project work is getting annoying. to be truthful, i ain't even contributing alot. still, it's getting on my nerves!
not to forget, special thanks to rayve for helping me out the new layout of my blog. owe all these to him, the silly cow.

dang, roooofus.

a tired long today, what more can i say?

roofus. roooooooooooofus!

my mom has been asking me how to work certain computer programs and also some radio programming thing. i know nothing about all these for i am quite computer-illiterate with the exception of things that interest me online only. and radio programming? what is that? so i tell her to wait for my brother to explain it to her. she goes on to ask me how come i don't seem to be able to tell her what she wants to know because she expected me to know.

i am feeling lousy now because of the above. sometimes i hate myself for being such a big dumbass.

see all those people on the ground
wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things i've become
that something is missing
maybe i...
but what do i know

and now it seems that i have found
nothing at all
i want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down
without it all
i'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and i'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

on my own.

shoplifting is a crime.

how long how long will i slide
separate my side i don't
i don't believe it's bad
slit my throat
it's all i ever
i heard your voice through a photograph
i thought it up it brought up the past
once you know you can never go back
i've got to take it on the otherside

centuries are what it meant to me
a cemetery where i marry the sea
stranger things could never change my mind
i've got to take it on the otherside
take it on the otherside
take it on
take it on

pour my life into a paper cup
the ashtray's full and i'm spillin' my guts
she wants to know am i still a slut
i've got to take it on the otherside

scarlet starlet and she's in my bed
a candidate for my soul mate bled
push the trigger and pull the thread
i've got to take it on the otherside
take it on the otherside
take it on
take it on

turn me on take me for a hard ride
burn me out leave me on the otherside
i yell and tell it that
it's not my friend
i tear it down i tear it down
and then it's born again

Which [Seven Dwarfs] are you?

went over to nat's house today. ate alot and am very full now still. nothing much happened today, just another monotonous day.
don't know why for no apparent reason my spirits have been high these few days. as i said, for no apparent reason. there's no reason to feel happier than usual, because everyday just simply sucks. anyhow, yea.
nat i hope you're feeling better, glad to hear that you are going to try to help yourself out with your problem. hope things go well for you!
feeling tired.

school sucked today, practically just like any other school day. well, what's new i have to say. we are experiencing minor changes in our timetable and we have new teachers taking over some of our subjects. i pray they will be able to help us make it through this year because our class is really quite tardy and has done really badly for our mid-yr exams. it's time to buck up and pull up our socks! hope my attitude towards schoolwork will take a turn for the better.
just something to perk things up - my piano lesson went well today surprisingly lol. it was one of the best i ever experienced and i have no idea as to why because i should supposedly be 'rusty'. it's a big big big miracle and that's marvellous because i didn't need something else to screw my day up any further.
tomorrow will be a sucky school day(duh!), no doubt. hope it will be less suckier than today.

just had my lunch of a lifetime, not that great but it consisted of my favourite unagi! i'm really full now, burp. this unagi tastes fabulousssssss and i want more! lol, obviously not now.
gee! no more long nails for now, cut my nails earlier this morning in preparation for the dreaded, nerve-racking piano lessons which are to resume tomorrow evening. damn! the thought of them coming to visit me again really irks me. my teacher's standards are like mountain high and i'm really lousy now. let's just say i can't match up to her expectations of me. thus, i dread every lesson as when i make a single mistake, she would be unhappy. as the mistakes multiply at a speed so fast you can never imagine, she would fly into a rage. and okay hoooray for me, i start to feel damn lousy. why is she back from italy already?! the past three weeks without lessons was heaven. maybe not heaven, but close enough. the fact i have to deal with now is that i haven't touched the piano in three whole weeks, and i've got a lesson tomorrow. how, what to do now? sigh.
whatever it is, i'll have to deal with it tomorrow. i dread tomorrow. there is school after our national education exam, full-day school. blahblah i hate school blahblah i hate school blahblah. okay leaving the house in awhile, going out to slack. slack slack slack slacker slacker slack slacker slack slacker slack slacker slack.

[ shout outs ]

rayve(weijie/cow!) : hey you don't be so upset yea? hope you're feeling better bout everything. i just read your blog and you couldn't sleep last night because you were so troubled is it? ugh, bad shit. really hope things will get better for you in no time and that you make the right choice. whatever choice you make and choose to do in future, all the best! this sounds so serious, so serious compared to how we usually talk our crap. aye cow! cow cow cow cow. cow cheer up okay? :)

natalie : hey girl! come on you cheer up too! i'm really sure things will get better, quite optimistic bout it. you should be too you know? don't coop yourself up any longer, because that really sucks. maybe i don't know how you really feel but trust me, i'm sure you know i've been through my own bad shit too right? yea the sad story which made you want to cry. hope you'll pull through this and time will tell and prove everything. you must take care and i'll take care of you in school, we all will! gonna be seeing you later, hope i can be a good counseller. no matter what, i'll be here for you that's for sure :)

hooray this rocks my template is screwing up for the 4983948236398273-th time again and i feel so HELPLESS. how many times have this been recurring? i fear there is more to come. maybe i should just bothering melvin to help me clear up this mess and just delete the whole blog altogether.

to the blog: you are a fucked up piece of shit constantly giving so many fucked-up problems to deal with. FUCK YOU.

leaving the house now, can't be bothered with this shit any longer. at least, not for now.

damndamndamn. what am i doing up at this unearthly hour? well the reason is that i'm supposed to go to feng's church this morning for youth service, but! but my dad couldn't make it home on time to ferry me there. therefore i ended up not being able to go, which is no good because i really wanted to go. ugh ugh ughh! next time i guess. as a result, i'm wide awake now and am unable to go back to sleep. especially after having a shower and breakfast. i am dying of boredom because there is nothing to do?!
'Animal Farm' by George Orwell has always been a book i wanted to read, since ages ago. kinda simple book and i'm sure majority have read it before. many schools have done it for literature before but not mine! therefore it's one outta a hundred chances that i would actually read a book because somehow i never ever finish a book once i start on it. it's either i forget where i stop because i was too sleepy the night before(note: i always fall asleep while reading a book. in other words it aids me in going to sleep), or i simply can't find time to finish it. actually i think the bit bout the time part doesn't make much sense because if i really wanted to finish it i would find the time to. plus, i spend alot of time just about doing nothing at all. oh well. i found the book yesterday night from the bookshelf and have embarked on the great mission to finish reading it. now i'm gonna complete the book! this i swear.
should be going with natalie to the chij carnival later, can't wait to see my favourite boy merrill! hahahahahaha.

i just got back and am DEADBEAT. think i walked alot today, thanks to jeremy, brother balls and company. jacq and me were practically laughing and joking all the way whilst walking. *my hero in tight pants!! yes jacq our private joke, lol. both the escalators stopped while we were on it, and i almost fell onto some guy's ass. HELLO?! LOL. it was an eventful day i must say, everything was funny. everything right jacq? oooooh EVERYTHING! hahahahahaha :)
oooh and we met up with jiayu, whose back from perth! welcome back girlfriend :) mayanne, val, nicole and yuiern were there too! so all of us just went walking around shopping and looking at stuff. had fun with them for the short while we were together. well, not that we didn't wanna stay but we had other business to attend to, lol.
i've been shopping like crazy the past few days and am in desperate need of cash. i bought quite abit of stuff, and i want MORE! can see my wishlist growing longer and longer by the day :) i need cash!
yea to conclude, i would like to say that my day out was, as i described, eventful. maybe even a tinge of 'fun'. definitely! *thinking of the tight pants again. jacq!! *nugde. lol, are you trying to figure it out? don't bother. it's a private joke, i repeat. alrighty that's all folks, shall go do something else now.

i don't know if it's me or what but my blogger's template is always being screwed up and that sucks. it's always screwed up. why the hell so and what the hell is happening i have no idea whatsoever and i don't mind finding out. anyway thank you melvin, the one who is always helping me clear up the mess i get myself in. you are my saviour, really you are man, lol. without all your help i think my blog would have been gone by now because i would have been so frustrated that i end up deleting it. so yea thanks alot, i could never thank you enough!
don't worry, i'll repay your kindness. i'll try my best!

okay i think it's time to go get ready now, and catch a lift from my dad to town. don't think i'll be late again today? hmmm.

Happy Deathday!
Your name:	xueting
You will die on:	Thursday, October 16, 2031
You will die of:	Caffeine Overdose
Username:
Created by Quill

WTF? hello i don't even drink coffee. maybe they actually meant the caffeine in coke. but then again, coke isn't the only soft drink that i drink. dying of a caffeine overdose sounds pretty unique, but could anyone actually die because of that? it sounds like a painless death to me. i want a painless death, i'm terribly afraid of pain. so this states that i'll die when i'm 46, maybe it's worth believing because i always thought that i would die at 16. but i've surpassed that age already so maybe 46 is the right one. lol whatever, this is crap.

ugh woke up with a sharp pain in my stomach and off i speeded to the bathrooom. what's with all these never-ending visits to the bathroom, i see my body system slowly entering 'sick mode' once again. just when i thought i had already recovered. maybe i have, from the gastric, already. i have to mention that all these started last night already, the visits to the bathroom. what now?! what is this. my hopes are dashed. i don't like to think that i'm getting diarrhoea now. it sounds sick, and is sick. perhaps it's because i ate too much junk food yesterday, of course it was delightful as i had been deprived of all these for the past week. however, i still don't see what i have done wrong to deserve to be sick again. feeling like monkey crap now, this is so unfair to me.
no matter what i'll still have to drag myself to school for oral exams. damn i have to find my own way there today, and usually in these cases i always end up being very late. i hope i won't be late today. damn this oral exam, we are going back to school just to take the oral exam, the date we got is really a big-time spoiler. if not we could have had free day today and all the way up till tue! no retarded school to attend, how great does that sound? but i don't get to enjoy this.
alrighty i think i better go have lunch and get ready before i end up being late. what the hell it's like only 11:53 and we have to be there by 1:45 and i have to get ready NOW?! arghh going to school myself sucks.

Your quite average... your nature isn't evil but if
your buttons are pushed..WHOA watch out!!


How evil are you?!
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Is the glass half full or half empty?

Which [Smallville] Characters are you?

The Party Animal - your dream guy/girl is a party
animal. sure, this kind of person could be fun
for hanging out with, but chances are they
aren't good for a serious relationship unless
they're willing to settle down a little. waking
up with a hangover will get old fast. as a
friend, this kind of person would definetely
keep a conversation going.


What kind of person are you?
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You're of the "I hate school"
breed!
You just hate going to school
and can't stand waking up every day just for
school. But no choice, you just force your way
through school and when the time comes, you
leave the country for other, better education
systems. Bah, at least you have the resources
to do so, you rich/smart bugger!!


Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You?
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literature paper today! lol, the first paper i've sat for this exams. one more to go - econs(tomorrow). truthfully, i do not feel the stress. seriously, not much stress. i guess perhaps it's because i'm only sitting for two papers. either that or i'll feel the stress when i get my papers back. lol i think my lit paper today was, er basically i didn't know if i was on the right track i just went on writing and writing till i had no more time left. my handwriting was simply atrocious, not that my normal handwriting's any better. bahh i hope i pass my lit because i have to i have to and i just have to!! comparing it to my other subjects, it's like my only hope kinda thing. this only hope can't let me down it can't!
oookay so i was deciding between staying in school to study with natalie and feng, or head for town to study with amanda and zhiyun. i really dread school(duh!) and i felt i really had to leave. so off we went to town. we did not study at all!! dammit. lol what's new. we bumped into daphne and some others. we settled down, then zhiyun and i did some artwork(woohoo!) which she will in time publish. it's really cool and she's pretty artistic man, that girl. wheeeee *evil laughter
we didn't get anything done so manda decided it was time we got started and the only solution would be to head for home! good one manda, smart move. you're incredibly intelligent! lol and yes we must study let's continue reminding ourselves to start on production and costs. *so how still at page two? oh i'm still at page one. i hope you aren't still at page two, but i'm still at page one manda. what the hellll, i can never get down to studying this crap.
I HATE PRODUCTION AND COSTS and MARKET STRUCTURE.

i'm glad! my good friend yvette just called me! :) i used to be really close to her but ever since this year, we never really had much chances to talk to each other. she just got back from england and was there for three weeks! lucky bitch. now what the hell am i doing suffering here. we were just talking bout how we have all 'grown up', in ways i wouldn't wanna reveal. certainly, we're getting older as the days go by. time flies. it's great catching up with her and all, we'll be meeting up really soon! yay can't wait!
lol i have only finished studying 'othello'. how now? two more books to go dammit. i have to get my ass off here, alrighty i'm kicking my own ass outta here.

i hear you
so don't you say another word
here you are standing there crushing yourself
i'm near you
but my eyes see a different world
now here you are, standing there
breaking my heart as you're crushing yourself

now lately you've been painting on the walls
with the black fire you lit
then you call it your mirror
and then you hate it
and then you spit on it

sorry you're not a god
now every thought you feel within turning into flames
so hold your breath cause all i can smell is ashes
sorry but you're not god

i hear you
but i can't recognize even a sentence as truth
who lit that black flame into your heart
and i'm near you
but my words land far from your heart
you turn your back and i don't know where to start

but lately you've been painting on the wall
with the black fire you lit
and it's a lie and i hate it
still you think it is you
and you keep it
sorry you're not a god

sister i'm sorry but it's not your call
to create a lying image of yourself

but there is hope sister

wheee i'm up. didn't go for my math paper today(worst shit anyone can ever encounter in their lives). didn't feel too good at first but now i think my spirits are lifted a little, which is good because then i think i would get abit of work done today hopefully? well, i'll just wait and see how the day goes.